My return to South Africa
No decision in life comes easy, lots of contemplation, fear, loss of faith and “do I or don’t I’s” rush through your soul, your mind and your being. The longing to see and be with my family, the feeling of loss of new made friends some who became family in the spirit, like minded souls also battling with so many issues, feeling of loss of control over what is taking place in the lives of the children of the Most High God. This was my battle for many months to do the right thing this “right thing” is not for what is right for me, but more what the Will of my Heavenly Father is, to keep on doing His Work above my own selfish desires and comfort zone. But as with so many situations in our lives, most of it we mess up with wrong decisions, but in the end we realize even if we think we make mistakes everything in life is a lesson, some very difficult, some easier, but we are here on the earth plane to learn to be better ambassadors to a Higher Power. The more I reflect on so many things the more I realize that I cannot even begin to fathom the workings of the Universe the turning of the wheels of time and the situations we have no control over. This is the Big Mystery which we will come to understand when we go to a higher plane, this is also a big maybe, as we a poor mortals cannot fathom the depth of this Great Being Who was from the beginning of time and will be long after we have passed on to be on the Celestial Plane. In this sense we also cannot even begin to fathom the depth of evil that has penetrated every level of our existence on earth, this is nothing new, it is as old as the Universe itself, the problems started when we applied the Free Will our Father granted us by choosing evil instead of the Loving and Caring Most High and Almighty God. Maybe all these remarks and daydreaming do not make sense, but all these things went through my mind trying to make the decision to come home. I did not want to make a mistake and I was torn between two worlds, the one that has a veneer of being a first world country and the other that used to be a first world country that sunk into the savage level after being destroyed from within and without.
The Universe does not allow indecisions so situations are created around an individual to make a move, to make a decision. This is what happened to me, quite a few situations manifested themselves, I am not going into these situations as some of them hit to near to my heart and it is of no importance to anyone but myself. The only thing that is important in writing this article is to try and explain what is happening to all of us personally and on the greater scale to races and nations, some of the situations or coincidences are very clear to see and to understand, most are hidden and is a mystery. Nothing stays hidden eventually it will be made clear, some coincidences take longer to make sense of, some will never be clear to the human way of understanding, this is where Faith and Trust come in, trusting our Heavenly Father that He does not create anything without a good reason or without a place in the bigger scheme of things.
So the decision I made to return to my Homeland was not done on the spur of the moment, but lots of prayer, meditation and contemplation went into it. Once I made the decision to return to South Africa a burden fell of my shoulders, not that it came without lots of work, planning and stress. Now looking back I can honestly say I do not know how I did it, but I had the encouragement of many friends who understood why I had to return home. Also more than thanks to my dear friend for many years who came down from north Louisiana to stay with me and help me with patience and support even though we knew maybe we will never see each other for a long time, but we just grabbed the day and the tasks at hand and we got through it all in spite of so many boulders we had to overcome. We prayed, laughed and cried together and I am forever grateful. Also to those who called and gave their friendly advice, thank you.
Change brings a lot of challenges, excitement and fear. Change brings lots of gains, but in the same token lots of losses. By coming home I reunited with my family whom I have not seen for a decade, but leaving brought tears and loss of so many friends who became my family in a land I could not call my own. Of course with South Africa under occupation the feeling of loss is immense and cannot be explained to anyone who has not lost a country before. I Am sure so many Europeans, where ever they are, in Europe, the United States, New Zealand, Australia are going through the same anguish losing their countries and heritage and all that are dear and known to them, but they have not as yet, know the feeling of utter loss and despair of the Boer Nation watching everything that was clean, orderly and civilized disappear into savage behavior and chaos. It is not only the buildings we are talking about here, but the very way of life we were used to which does not exist anymore and the utter despair in the eyes of a once proud nation who gave the biggest empire Britain a run for their lives for three years during the Anglo-Boer War. A war that was not a war but what became a genocide of a people by eliminating the women and the children by putting them in concentration camps. Today we are watching the British losing their heritage, country and way of life. It seems this is the trend all over the Western World. All that we held dear for centuries are falling into destruction and chaos, every country experience the same attack, the same modus operandi, the same enemy behind the scenes, because in this war against civilization no country will be declared the victor, but the unseen hand of evil will in the end be victorious, IF by the Grace of our Heavenly Father this destruction will be stopped, by ourselves we cannot even begin to turn this around, the evil is so deep seated and the foundation so strong for any human hand to attempt turning this around. The more I study the workings of this evil, the more it comes to the surface that all we at this moment in time can do is to educate and explain to those who want to make the effort to listen to what we are up against. The problem is we have been in this way of life for too long a time to even imagine what it would be like to not deal with chaos. This evil we are up against is thriving on chaos, where there is prosperity, peace and decency, all these things have to be destroyed.
Coming back to South Africa this is exactly what I encountered. The veneer of prosperity is very thin, very easy to observe if you just make a small effort, but then again living in this chaos it seems “normal”.
It is when you step outside the box you can see, also to a degree, as the brain and the phyche want to tell you not to accept what the eyes observe as it is too painful and you try to convince yourself it cannot be this bad.
I went with friends to listen to the Welsh Men’s Choir at the Johannesburg University, previously known as the Rand Afrikaans University, this one of the changes the New South Africa implemented, changing names of universities, streets, cities and towns. The Rand Afrikaans University was the only Afrikaans University in Johannesburg. The Witwatersrand University was for the English speaking population and this university became very liberal and in later years played an important role in the destruction of nationalism and patriotism because of its Marxist leanings.
When travelling on the M2 highway (interstate) to Johannesburg I noticed the new buildings, row upon row, new businesses and what seems like progress. Then I looked behind the new buildings and I saw the buildings falling apart, the windows all broken, looking like skeletons with staring sockets where eyes used to be, the whole scene seemed haunted, a tribute to what was and the new buildings the veneer of what is, just a pretense of a civilization who died in 1994. Of course the country and civilization we have known and loved as the Republic of South Africa had a long road to “freedom” in the sense that it took nearly a century, from 1902 after the Boers lost the Anglo-Boer War to the English, to completely capitulate and die from the rot from within. This all could not have happened if the Boers did not have so many traitors, jingoes (Boers sympathetic to the English) and Boers/Afrikaners who just gave up to join the destroyers. By saying this it is not the English per se, but the government and liberalism they represent, in this the American government as well as the European governments are guilty as charged. I saw the hand of Big Business all over, the stamp of America is clear for all to see, if you just look and observe. The morality of my people fell to an all-time low, the dress code became sloppy. Of course I do not lay the blame on Americans, the ordinary people, they were also hijacked by the same onslaught as the rest of us. We became Africanized and Judaized in behavior and belief and adjusted accordingly that we do not even recognize the fact that we are going against all the teachings of our Heavenly Father. We are now numb to all the changes like the frog that was placed in water and slowly the heat was turned up and now we do not even have the energy to jump out of this melting pot as it is too known to us and we cannot even think that there is another clean, orderly life outside this melting pot.
The shock to my system and my soul to see how far my people have fallen is a heavy burden, but in the same token I am very happy to see and hear how many Boers are not taken in by this modernism of a spiritless and Godless existence. What I realized it is only a remnant of a remnant in the end who will prevail, here on the most southern tip of Africa, America and Europe. It does not matter how hard the enemy tries to destroy, he will not succeed.
With what is happening in the Ukraine I realized how deep the roots of this evil go, how the tentacles of the octopus of Jewry reaches into every facet of the lives of our people, how vicious and ugly their hatred is against humanity. How they use others to do their dirty work to kill and maim so many.
In the case of South Africa we fought the border war in the 1980’s and it does not matter how many authors were and are writing books to make it out as a racist war, to keep the system of apartheid, this is so far from the truth as the War of Succession in the United States where the war was fought to free the slaves. The Border was fought in Angola and the north of German South West Africa, now known as Namibia, against communism. Many Africans fought alongside the Boers against soulless Marxism, as they were quite aware what is in store for them when they will be under the Hammer and Sickle of Jewry.
The Border War was lost because of politics, not because we had a hopeless and inefficient army, in actual fact the South African Defense Force was very well trained and one of the best Africa has ever seen. South Africa was drawn into the two world wars because of treason and being a vassal state of Britain. Now we are a vassal state of the United States of America with strings attached to the City of London as we all are, as well as the IMF. South Africa had to be destroyed from within and without to be a debt society like what happened to Iraq, Libya, etc. and what is now taking place in the Ukraine.
Of course South Africa was not invaded by the United Nations in uniform, but by cunning and using the African to do their dirty work South Africa was taken over. Where South Africa in the past, before 1994 was orderly and clean and everyone had a job, a future, this is not so 20 years after the African National Congress took over. South Africa is no different than any other country on the continent of Africa. My country became a garbage dump of the lowest of humanity, plastic bags and other stuff not allowed to mention in decent company, so I leave it to the readers imagination, it does not take much to visualize this as most people outside Africa has seen enough on the television screen what the continent of Africa and other countries allowing the African to roam and take over became.
The veneer is not only very thin regarding the new buildings, the infrastructure, new roads where the tourists would be travelling, going off the beaten path, it is another story, potholes big enough to bury an elephant are found. The decay, lack of maintenance is not hidden, it is staring you in the face, the excuse of course, as always is “apartheid” this excuse will be used for ages to come, something must be blamed, never incompetence. The veneer is tangible when we come to government where an incompetent people rule over the masses of incompetent idiots. Just because we do not want to be called racist and because we accept the government installed by the enemy of the human race we put up with incompetent nitwits ruling over us all. This is not only in South Africa but it is a worldwide situation. So how long will this incompetence last? Is the pyramid not standing on its pinnacle and being pushed into the abyss of nothingness, madness and destruction?
It is not the incompetence of the ruling class or the idiot masses that is raising this question or concern, it is the evil surrounding and consuming us all which is the big question. How did we allow this, how do we counteract this, how do we recognize the fact that we were all fooled and sucked in by evil itself? Do we realize and understand and comprehend the depth of what took place?
With all these questions in mind we do not even start to understand the Greatness, Mercy and omnipotence of the Most High God, I think not. Is it not time we turn back and ask His Help and understand from within our very soul that we cannot even begin to fathom and understand what is taking place in the Universe and that we have to ask with everything in our being for His forgiveness?
South Africa is not the first country to go through this tribulation and will not be last, but South Africa can be the beginning of the turning point and we can fulfill the promises made by God in Zeph. 3:10 and Isaiah 18. It is because of the promises our Father made that I returned to my Homeland, I want to live the Miracle that is White South Africa. I know it does not seem to be so, but how can I doubt my Heavenly Father, He is true from the beginning, never ending, the one God and none other.
We must learn the lesson of the Victory at Blood River on December 16, 1838. God gave the Boers the Victory as they have asked, but they did not follow through to finish what they were supposed to do. This time we have to follow through to live the Miracle in the Victory God will give us.
BOOK OF SCROLLS
What is the destined fate of a man who knows
the existence of things beyond his understanding?
I see but I do not know, therefore I am afraid. Man
can swim against the current towards the bank, but
he needs a helping hand to pull him ashore when
he is exhausted from the struggle.
This is the fate of man. He must strive for that
which he cannot attain. He must believe in that
which he cannot prove. He must seek that which
he cannot find. He must travel a road without
knowing his destination. Only thus, can the
purpose of life be fulfilled.
Man may believe he knows his destiny, but he
cannot be assured with certainty; in no other way can
can he fulfil it. In this way alone can his soul be properly
awakened to flower with its full potential. This alone
he may know: The purpose of all human life is a goal
so glorious it surpasses all earthly understanding.
We may visualize our individual goals as we
will, it is ordained that we have this freedom. How
close or how far we are from reality is of little con-
sequence, what is, is. He who seeks a non-existent
destination will, nevertheless, get somewhere. He
who seeks not at all will get nowhere. Earthly life
fulfills itself without attainment. SOLI DEO GLORIA